2009

They say you should reflect on the good and see how far you improved. I think that is fake because you have to look on the things you did not accomplish. I am not one of those people who sets goal or writes a bunch of crap down . I am the person who says I'll do it and I'll do it. You can write stuff down, but it does not mean you will accomplish your goals. I say a lot of things I'll do, but never do. I always say I'll get out of my current job for a better job. I do say that, yet I have not followed through. I have been there for four years and counting and it is time for me to move on, yet I have done nothing to move on. I have gotten so busy with school, running, working out and work; Yet I have procrastinated and it makes me mad because I need to leave. It is not a bad place where I work, it's just time for me to move forward in life. That is one thing I don't think I have accomplished in 2009. I workout and run, I will also finish school, but I have not had any big changes. I have hope, but you have to do rather than hope. I have to move forward in work, college and even sports. When you don't move forward you get stuck in a rut. You become negative and accuse everyone else for your failures. I don't really accuse people for my failures, but it is my fault for not moving forward in the direction I want to go. I have to and that is my plan to move forward. It is not because I am trying to impress a certain girl or anything, I have to impress myself because I am my hardest critic. I think we all are hard on ourselves, but we have to be because if we are not, then we will settle. I don't want to settle, there is so much more to life, than settling for a job, a career, or any other things that people say it is okay. I feel like I always have to be moving forward and can not think it is okay because that is when you fall. I do want to make money and work a career that is actually useful. I do want money, not because of status, just so I can live and take care of myself and family. That is what life is about and people may say it is not, but it is. So I do have to keep moving and not look back or worry because that is when you fail.