I run for Sandy City

Never give up and when all seems dark just keep moving forward. Life is like running we just have to move forward and sometimes it may seem hard, but we just have to keep moving. Then there are times when we are scared to move and just like in running, we just go a little bit farther and farther. When you do that you realize your potential. For me it has been hard because sometimes things don't go your way. You just want to stop and stay were you are, but I can't and no one should because if you keep moving you will reach your destiny.

What is my destiny?I don't know but I do think life is about helping others and progressing in relationships. That is the purpose of life. I really think that and there are times when we go off the path or have setbacks. These things happen, but we have to move forward and never look back. I see a lot of people and what they do and it is sad because I thought they were great people. They are good, but they just do stupid things. You see people you once knew go off into the deep end. The world would say they are finding themselves. I would disagree. How could you find yourself by drinking, drugs, and doing other things that are just pointless. It is hard for me to see these people what they have become because I used to think they were great. They still are great, they just do dumb things. The world would say it's fun, but I don't think it is. I don't see how wasting you lives doing dumb things like drugs, booze, and worldly stuff is meaningful. Not that is wrong, I just don't get it, to me it seems pointless.

These people have gotten lost and they need help to realize their potential. Sometimes I need to realize my potential, I have often sold myself short because I did not do certain things in life. However, I realized that is not true because if you work hard , you can be anything you want to be. If people judge you for the past then they are fake. I used to worry what people thought of me and sometimes I still do. It has taken me a long time to overcome that. I have realized that you will always be judged and it really does not mean a thing until that person gets to know you.

These things are like setbacks in running, they would try to keep you from moving forward. Sometimes they really destroy you, but you have to keep trying. It is hard sometimes because you don't get what you want or things happen, but I have learned that everything will work out in end. The negative me still has a hard time believing this because I have not gotten everything I want, I guess I just have to keep moving and not think about. It will come one day even though I can't see the end. I have to visualize it and then I'll get there. That is the same in running, when you first start you can't see the end, but in your mind you can and that is the focus while your running. Things may get in the way like injuries or bad weather. However, you keep moving and then you get to the end. You realized it was hard, but it was worth it. So never give up your dreams or hopes of relationships, or any other thing your heart desires because eventually it will happen if you keep moving forward.

Purpose

Recent events around the world have kept me thinking. I always worry in the first place of bad things that can happen anyways. However, these things that happen make me realize what is really important in life? Does it really matter how much money I made? or does it matter who I helped and what I became? Everything can be taken away in a blink of any eye. I think I need to have priorities of what is important to me. I already know what is important, but sometimes things get in the way. It is important for me to move forward and meet a girl. That is important because that is the purpose of life. It's not the main purpose, but I am pretty sure most people in the world want to get married and have a family of their own. That scares me as well because what if bad things happen when I have kids and a wife. I can't protect them from natural disasters or any other things that can harm people. I should not think about things like that, but how can you not when you see what goes on in the world today. You know something will happen and the thing is will I be ready?I don't know and that is why I have to prepare because we don't know what can happen because the world can change in a blink of an eye. That is why it is important to have your priorities strait because in the end it won't matter what we became. It matters who we helped, who we picked up, and motivated. I believe that and that is the purpose of life. We are here to help others and when we realize that is our purpose then our lives will get better. There is not a better feeling when you help someone you care for or just want to help. Nothing in this world can make you feel that way. They could, but they don't truly last because things like money and possessions are temporal and eventually they don't make you happy. There is a part of me that would say those things make you happy because who does not like possessions. I do, but I have realized none of those things can compare to what I felt when I actually have cared for someone or done something for them. I am not saying that I have to be soldier, doctor, or any other positions that saves lives. I can help people with what I do. I like inspiring people with art. Some of my work it depressing, but that is my expression of certain feelings in my life. However, I think art has the power to inspire people if you use it the right way. Today art most is depressing, but there still is good art that inspires people. I do not have to use art to help people; no I can just do the small things. The small things are the greatest things one can do. I believe in that because sometimes the small things can have a huge impact on someones life. I think they do, even though we may feel that it has done nothing or it was just a waste of time. Most people don't express their true feeling, so we don't know, but I know that the small things do help people. Great things help people as well, but the small things are signs that you really care and it shows the world who you really are. That is what life is about and it is also to be happy. Sometimes it is hard to be happy, but we should look at what have and what we have done and then we realize how blessed we really are. Life is about helping others, how much I would want to argue it, it is true. You get married, you have a family, and you work with people. You may not think you are helping them, however in a sense we are because our purpose is to help them reach their full potential. We are the tools to their success and everyone has potential. The cynics and the cynic in me would say, "why would you want to do that because everyone is our competition." I have realized if we could help everyone realize their full potential the world would be a better place. You think about and it is true because people who do the wrong things were not helped. No one helped them realized who they are and what their potential can be. That is why I need to do that wherever I go work, or whoever I marry or any other person I come in contact with. I am not saying we have to tell everyone in the world what they should be doing. I am just saying that the people we see everyday, we can help them realize what we see in them. The other day this girl I work with she said she can't do sell a certain product because she is not good at it. I told her you can be good at whatever you want to be and I said you never know until you try. That is what we need to do we need to encourage people to get out of their comfort zone and help them reach their full potential and let them become who they were born to be. I realized that in my own life. The people who are successful in life are the ones who keep going. An example is Lebron James. People may not like him, but I do and he said one of the greatest things I ever heard. They asked him if he is afraid to fail and he said no. Lebron went on saying you have to fail in order to have success. That is what I think when it comes down to life. When there is a new job, a scary class, or being more social. We have to realize we can't be afraid to fail because if we don't try we will never know our true potential. That is also what we have to do for other people, we have to let them know that failing is not failing because it helps you learn who your really are.

Inversion

Sometimes I wonder if it will ever come together. I don't know if it ever will. Everything I worked hard for is meaningless when you don't do anything. Status, jobs, and other things don't matter when you do nothing. What I am writing about? I am writing about being normal and socializing. I don't do that, I hang out with people, but it is not fun anymore. There comes a time in your life when you get frustrated and want more. I got a 4.0 last semester, but it is all pointless when you have nothing to look froward to. I just run, work, workout. I have to and it has ruined me. People probably might think I am crazy, but I have to do things like that before I have fun. However, trying to be perfect in all things is not fun, it just makes you more bitter and frustrated. Sometimes it is my fault because I don't try and go out of my comfort zone. However, when you don't really have friends you hang out with all the time, it is hard to come back to where you once were. I want more in this life and that is all am saying. I want to date, I don't care about seeing my old friends, I just want to meet a girl and move forward with that person I like. This sounds kind of lame coming from me because I don't really express to people how I really feel. That is how I really feel and that is what life is. It is meeting someone you like and then maybe one day you will marry that person. I know if I were to get married I would have to grow up and be more mature, but that is a reason to grow up. People say it is fun doing whatever you want and being single. It is not, it is, but for me it hasn't. My single days just consist of doing nothing, so I don't really care about being a bachelor or partying it up. I want to meet someone and get married one day. I think everyone does deep down inside even if they won't admit it. Who would want to be alone, it is horrible and I feel bad for those people who are alone because I've been alone and it is not fun. I think when you are with someone you have more power, more focus, and a greater desire to succeed. That is how I feel because if I ever do get married, I can not be a failure because that is who I am. People might see me as laid back, but I am not I am always striving to work harder because hard work has gotten me to where I am today. I still have to keep working to get to where I need to be. I don't know why I am talking about relationships, but I think about it a lot and I hope one day I'll meet that girl I want to marry. Nothing else in this life matters besides that because everything else if fake. I can waste my whole life working trying to become the greatest, but in the end it won't bring me happiness. Some people may say that being married will not bring you happiness either because eventually you will get sick of each other. I won't be like that because I believe that being with someone you love is probably the greatest feeling in the world and that is why it is important to marry the right person. Maybe one day I'll know, but the negative me does not see any change coming anytime soon because I have to spend most of my time right now with school, work, running, and working out. I hope this will be the year I get out of my anti-social ways and meet people and maybe even one day getting married. I realized I have to do in order to achieve these wants and I wish I could have the power to stop being so anti-social. However, it is hard to break old habits when you are in a comfort zone and in a rut.

look

I know that people read this blog and I know that some people in my family read this blog. I really don't want people to read this because this is how I really feel sometimes and I don't really want people to know how I really feel. I created this blog for a school, but I still kept writing because it's kind of like a journal, but not really. Anyways, I have realized why should I worry what other people think because it does not matter what they think, they don't truly know me. I learned that because I have always been concerned that people might judge me. Then someone told me once that you will always be judged, but that does not mean those things are true because they don't really know you. If you read this and judge me about what I say and write I can't worry because you don't really know who I am. We are always going to be judged for everything we do by others, but that does not mean we can't accomplish anything. I realized in life we can do anything and we can't worry about what other people may say. We just have to work for what we want and sometimes we might have to work a little harder for the things we want in the life. Hard work is the key to success, that is what I have learned and if you put forth the effort eventually you will reach your goals, hopes, and dreams. Life is about doing and not about thinking.

Life is also about helping others as well. I have written about that before, but that is the main purpose of life. It is to help others. If you think about it, everything we do is helping others. I am talking about careers or jobs or any other ways we are in contact with people. I don't know if I truly helped someone, but we are helping people in one form of another. If you think about it, it is true. Even the most stupid things help people in some way or another. An example would be movies. They don't cure people, but they help people get away from reality for a short time. Even where I work I am helping people. I don't know if it is great what I am doing, but these small things are helping people in their lives. That is why I realized I need to be more patient sometimes because some of these people we meet have problems of their own and if we are not nice to them, we could make them feel worse or even offend them. I need to work on those kinds of things. It is weird that I observe these kind of things, but that is who I am. I often think a lot and observe a lot because that is just who I am.