They say life is supposed to be enjoyed not endured. I don't believe that because it just sucks. I am sick of it all. I work, go to school, and then I have to go do other things such as workout, but other than that life just is pointless. I am not looking forward to the end of my college career. It's easy, but I don't want to do it because I hate it. I think college is overrated. I went because I am supposed to and look where that has got me nowhere. I hate my major and I want to leave and do something productive in life. I hate all those people in my major, they are annoying who need to get a life. Especially the people in my emphasis, I am in the sports management emphasis and these people are obsessed with working with sports. I'm not, I just want to get out of college. I think working for sports is dumb; the only thing I would ever do for a sport company is their graphic design work. However, that can be annoying as well because I am an art technology minor and those people get on my nerves as well. Lots of people get on my nerves and maybe it is because I am jealous. I am jealous of some because I see what they have and do. while I just work and then I have to workout because I have too. I am jealous because they have fun and play, but all I do is worry whether or not I'll have money for school or if I'll be able to pump iron at the gym.

I think life is endured and not enjoyed, I lost all the joy years ago and I don't see any improvements in the near future. I had the hope, but it got shatterd and now I have become something I should never be and that is negative. It's not good being negative, but that is what happened, I don't look at the good only the bad, I wish one day It would get better, but it does not seem likely. There it goes again a negative thought and I'm not being funny. I am funny, but this is true and it has to stop.