positive

I got dissed the other day and lost it because when people try to say things that put me down, I am not going to put up with their crap. Or should I say garbage, I'm sorry, but I am really angry and still angry and let face the fact that I am still bitter and don't really want to get over it. This person told me once I am done with school I will not get a good job and that I am all talk in someways of my life. Are you serious? I already know that, but when people say things it just goes in my mind and I don't forget and I will remember and when I do make it in life, I'll make sure this douche bag knows what I did. I know we should not act like that, but I can't live my whole life and let people say crap that is not true.

That has been my life story and it is the reason for motivation on why I do certain things because I wan't to prove all those people wrong. Everyone has doubted me and never believed in me and that is why I am the way today. That is why I am isolated and don't really want to be around people because they always think they are better than you. My whole life I have never got what I really wanted, I have to often sit and watch people get what they want, while I just keep wasting my life for compaines and believe that they actually care about me. I have realized most companies do not and that has made me more bitter because people say hard work is so valauble, but I have learned some companies do not care if you work hard or not. All I have earned from working hard is a rut and I get dissed by goobs who think they know life. These experiences don't really help me out and make me stay the same because I feel like nobody has really ever truly believed in me. Even that one comment goes in the basket and I have lots of things I can't get over because people don't know that I am the person can remember things that happened to me since I was a kid.

However, I can't use those reasons for excuses in life because only cowards and losers do that. I mean people say crap all the time I guess you can't worry what they say because most of the time they are haters and they will fade away. Most of the people who say things like that are really not happy with themselves and they just want people to feel like them. I have learned if you worry what other people say, you are no better than them. There are always going to be people like that and the best thing to do is to work hard and never give up. This person is fine example of a quitter, they use excuses on why they are not the man they should be today. I have learned there is no excuse or reason why you can't become what you want to be. So never listen to those kinds of people and don't quit because if you truly work hard and try, you will get to where you want to be. You can find a job and no tragedy or situation can get in the way, the only person from stopping us is ourselves. I do believe in me and I know that I will be something better than I am today. I can't be negative because people like that are babies and they just need to grow up and I know that you can achieve anything even though I sometimes pretend you can't. So go for the dreams and do not listen to negative things people say.

raller

Sometimes people are not what the seem, they are fake and they say things that just make you want to lose it. I really wanted to go on a rant, but people are people and we have to learn how to work with others. A lot of people get on my nerves because they just seem gooberish and fake, but I should look at the good they do and how they are trying to do what is right. I think people in the country and in the world should look at the good people are trying to do. Sometimes at work I get to hear people rant on how they hate certain leaders in this world. You know, you can't control what happens or the decisions they make, but you can control how you respond or act. People think the world is going to fall apart, but I don't think it is going to fall. There will be natural disasters, wars, and maybe other things that can cause turmoil. We still have to move forward and we can't worry what could or may happen. We have to do what we know now and move forward. The world is not going to end and it is still a wonderful place to live in. If we worry about the negative then we will become insane. We have to realize that as long as there is good, we will never fall. I believe that because there is good in this world and most people in this world do things because they believe in the good and they are not bad people. I think people need to realize that and that they are at least trying to change. That is what I have realized, people do not like change, people often like things the way they are. I have learned in my own life that we have to have change in order to reach our full potential. If we never change, then we never progress and we never could have helped those people that needed our help. I really think that is the purpose of life, to help people and to try and make the world a better place. I think it is a great place to live and we should look at the good and not the bad. My whole life I have always dwelt on the bad and that is not a good way to live because it ruins you and it puts you in a rut. I have realized that I should dwell on the good and I think the world may be changing and things are happening, but we should not fear because if we believe in God, then we should know that he will never let us fail. We will have shortcomings, but if we keep trying we will reach our potential in this life. I also realized that we should look on the good people do. People do things that will always make us mad or hurt us, but we should look on what they have done and how they made the world a better place.

green

People say it always works out, but sometimes that is not true. It is a bunch of $#!), and I don't feel sorry for saying that because experiences in my life have made me think that way. We don't get what we want, we often have to taste failure and it's not a good feeling. I have tasted it too often and it is sad that things do not work out. They say if you do all the right things everything falls into place, but I am a skeptic and don't believe that all the time because I do what is right yet nothing falls into place. It is sad because you wanted to get what you wanted, yet you got failure and bitter thoughts why you. I often wonder why things don't seem to work out for me. It is sad because I don't want to keep doing the same thing over and over again. I wanted to move, yet it seems that I will be stuck in a rut for a little longer and that is sad. It is sad because you wanted more and you thought you were good at what you do, but nobody believed in you. You may wonder what I am even talking about, but it is not that hard to figure out. I am talking about my last thing I have to do in school and that is a big internship and nothing has worked out. It looks bleak and I don't know if it will work out. I had a dream to graduate in the summer, yet the companies I wanted to work for don't want me. I guess that is my life story when I think about it. I never got my first choice of where I wanted to work, I always had to go to places that were not my dream. So these experiences have made me cynical because doing the right thing does not mean you will get the promotion or the dream job. I am not trying to be negative, but that is how I feel. It seems like no one has ever wanted me and so that has made me who I am today. I want to prove all those people wrong who did not hire me or believe in me. I know I can be anything I want to be, yet these people only see one thing and they don't look at the potential somebody has. I have a lot of potential, people don't want to roll the dice on me. My goal is to be a graphic designer, yet people don't believe in me. They should realize that everything I have done in graphic design is by myself. I have no teacher, I just have me and it is sad that no realizes how hard I work because I learned from working hard and being creative. It is sad that I can't seem to find my dream internship, I want to do graphic design or web design, but nobody believes in me or they are too lazy to even respond back to me. It is sad because they say if you live right and do what is right, things will go your way, but for me they have not and I don't see anything improving. All I wanted was to achieve my dreams and graduate in the summer, but right now it looks like another setback and I have to stop and stare and wonder what went wrong. I will never give up my dreams because I know I am good at whatever I want to be and that is the same with everybody. You can be what you want to be, it might not work out at first, but you have to keep trying and sometimes people don't believe in you, but that is life. You can't worry what other people think, you have to believe in you and if you do, you can get to where you want to be.

I am a quiet kid sometimes and I watch people because that is what you do when you are shy. I know some people may not believe that I am shy, but I am. It's not easy, but that is a story for another day. I often observe people with what they say and what they do. I don't know why, I just do and sometimes it gets on my nerves because people say certain things yet they don't do them. It has made me mad sometimes or even shocked sometimes to see what people do.

However, I realized we should not look at the bad people do, we should look at the good things people do. Nobody is perfect and that is what I have to realize that sometimes people I looked up at are not perfect. I should look on the good things they do. I have and I realize that they are good people and that just like them I am not perfect. I shouldn't worry about other people, I think the best thing is to worry about me. I still need to help people, but I should not look on the things they don't do.

It is hard to look at the good in all things because of what goes on in the world today. You wonder if everything is all a coincidence or is it just the end of the world. I guess I should not worry about things I can't control. I should worry about the things I can do. I can do lots of things and I think the most important thing is he help and motivate others. I meet people and I think they are great and yet they say things that bring them down. I feel for them because I do that at times, but I know I am a great kid and I need to let these people know what I think of them. We do need to let people know what we think of them or see in them. I don't do a great job of that because I am quiet and I don't really like expressing my true thoughts. I try to be funny instead, but I realize there is nothing wrong with expressing to someone what you see in them.

I see a lot of things and sometimes I choose to react negative or cynical and I do that sometimes just to get on people's nerves. I am sorry for that because life is not to be endured, life is supposed to be enjoyed and I need to look in the good in life. Even if crazy things happen in the world today we can't quit. We still have to keep living and hoping that one day it will all work out. I know all things will work out in the end because if you do what is right, good things always come your way. They may not at first, but you have to keep pushing along because that is what life is all about. It's about never quitting and going for your hopes and dreams. Peace out!