The End

Every time the year ends, people have some grand idea of what they want to do or be the coming year. Most of the time the things people want is about them and how they can make their life better. I came to the conclusion yesterday that this life is not really about us. It's about others. So maybe we should focus on helping our friends or that one person who really needs help. I am selfish person as well. I always think of me first and the other day a person told me their problems and it made me have have a epiphany. The thing that came to my mind is that we are really here to help others and to help bring them up. My problems are nothing and usually they're meaningless in the big picture of all things. The real purpose of life is to help others, yet we never do. Everything in this life of what we become is all meaningless if we truly never helped anyone indeed. Everything ends, just like us and it made me realize that there has to be a bigger picture than me. Even if you are not religious, you still have to think that there has to be some meaning to life. If there is no point to life, then what is the point to life. I guess that is the hardest thing we will have to experience on earth because we can do whatever we want. We can be bad or we can be good. I don't know sometimes why we are here. I know deep down inside, but sometimes I wonder if I have a purpose or if everything in this life is a coincidence. Yet there probably really is no coincidence because everything is fate and everything that has and will happened, has happened for a reason. Sometimes we don't get what we want and maybe we never will. At times that is hard to grasp, but I have learned that you can't focus on what you don't have. You have focus on what you can do. I think when you forget about you and start to worry about others, that is when life has more meaning. So when you see someone down or see their frown, you have to step up and tell them what you see in them and what their potential can be.......

Sic- we were meant to live for so much more.

"Meant to Live"That song always had meaning to me when I first heard it and it still means something to me today. We are all meant to live for so much more. Yet we settle and don't believe we can. I have realized that no matter where we are in life, we can always can do better than we think we can. Things may happen and we may not be at where we want to be in this life, but I have learned you can never give up. You can't compare yourselves to others because we are all at different places in this life. Some may leave sooner and some people may leave this life later than others. What we are here for is very simple. It is to help people realize their true potential. It does not matter what kind of money we make. All that matters is we made the people we were in contact with better than they were when we first met them. Life does suck and sometimes it seems pointless, but there is something here that we are supposed to do. I don't know what, but I think we are to inspire others and learn ourselves. We are here to learn that we are all the same. We all have the same kind of problems and same fears, but you things like where we are from and all that other jazz get in the way. I think when we leave this life, we realize the true meaning and realize what we did do and did not do. SO I guess the main thing is to never hold back because if you do, you might end up being bitter.

Life

What is the purpose of life? Some say it is to live it up and do what you want to do. Others say it is to make it better than you left it. Sometimes it all makes sense, but most times life is not what we think it will be. It is sad that nothing can be the same. It never just stops, it keeps going until your hourglass run outs. Most people say they have time to change, but days go to weeks to months and eventually years. Then you realize what have you done and you start to fear. Some of us won't last long and other will be here for awhile and I have learned that the purpose of life is to help others, yet most of the time we don't. I feel bad at times of the way I have acted, but I have to learn that I am only human and that is why I am here on this earth. It is to learn and some people may not believe there is another life after this life. I am certain there is even though I can't prove it to disbelievers. The only thing I can do is live life the way it is supposed to be lived. I have learned it is showing people that you care and that no matter where you are in this life, there is always hope. That is what the great thing about a new day is because with each new day there is hope. We can always change and when people say you can't, you can.

As I walked away from the basketball court tonight, I could taste the bitterness of the blood that was oozing in my mouth. I realized that is like life. Sometimes it does not pan out and that people are never there for you when you are down. Some may be, but I don't think there is anyone out there that has ever gave a shiz what has happened to me. It hurts when people forget about you and you just become that person that people wondered whatever happened to, but they can't even give you a call. I have realized to never put my hope in people because they will let you down and if you try, they will forget because they have important things to do and that is worry about themselves. I have often observed many people in relationships and wondered if I ever will be in one day, but I have realized it won't mainly because I am cynical person and girls don't like people like that. I had hope, but it went out the window years ago when I realized in life that I am going to have to settle and do things I hate. I have worked hard, but sometimes hard work does not get you anywhere and you either have to not let it bother you or you can let it bother you. That is what I have done and it makes me wonder why I can't seem to get back. Maybe it's because I am so used to the same thing and I don't believe in moving forward. Moving forward just means you are getting closer to the end and I do not want to become a has been. I want to be normal, but in this life you don't get to choose and sometimes it is the hardest thing to accept because you don't want to. Some people say life is simple, yet we make it so hard. Some say it is worth it though and others say you get one life to live and that you should live it and do whatever the hell you want to do. It may be true, but I have learned that the purpose of life is not to do what you want to do, it's to do things for others. Yet most of us don't, we fail short of the bar. We tend to reflect on our own problems, yet there are people out there who have it worse than us. Just because you have problems, does not mean you can do a thing. Some person once told me you have to help yourself out before you help others. It's not true because nobody is perfect and you can help people out, even if you think you are not good enough. That is what goes in my mind when I observe others.

Shattered

Dreams don't come true and most of the times they never will. We give them up because we either we settle for what we have now or we just don't believe in ourselves. Or people tell us we suck and so we quit and never try. My dreams were shattered years ago and to be honest they were unrealistic dreams. That is what is so sad about life because when you are young, you think the world is great and that nothing can stop you. As you grow older you start to realize that those dreams were stupid and that there is no way you will actually achieve those dreams. I sit here and type and yet I am doing nothing with life. I often wonder if I'll ever make it, but usually I don't and never will. Why would I be so negative, at such a young age? It is simple because people never have given me the opportunity to believe. However, you can't put your fate on people, you have the power to control your own fate. That is what I realize, but I still can't become what I want to be and it is sad because you know you can, but the thoughts come back and you really don't think you can. I often hide my true feelings and if I ever did show them, it would not matter because people don't care. They don't and if you said to me that they do, I hardly would believe them. Most people care for one thing and that is themselves and you may sit here and read this and want to argue, but it is true. We all help people, but sometimes we do it for the wrong reasons. I have, but who cares because nobody cares and why would I write such negative things? I choose to react the way I feel and we have the power to change, but how many actually do. Seriously most people never change and they do for a few weeks and months, but they go back to their old ways. Sometimes you think they can, but most of the time they don't. It's not, that I am trying to be depressing, but this is how I think at times and I know I should not be like that. I should have hope, but it is hard to have hope at times because sometimes you go nowhere in life. I have not got to where I want to be, I just graduated from college, but I have not progressed in anything. I still feel like I am in high school at times and it is sad to see the people your age move forward. It's like I have regressed and they have all tasted the goodness of life. I have just tasted the failures of life and it's a bad taste, but it is my own fault. Everything is your own fault when things don't go your way and that is what I realize and I realized people should not feel bad for me because it is my fault and if I really wanted to change then I would. I never do, I go back and settle because of fear. Fear is a swear word I can't say, but it destroys you and it messes you from reaching your full potential. So when I talk to people I tell them they can because I believe that they can and yet I never believe in me and it is sad. I see their potential, but I never see mine, but who cares because that is life and if I never man up, then I'll never get to where I want to be. I have learned we can be what we want to be, we just have to work for what want to be. At times life may be lame, but that is the purpose of life. It is to rise above and while you rise, you should bring others up with you because I don't I want people to ever feel like I have and if they do, I'll raise them up and tell them what I see in them. If I never make it, then I am really not trying. I have observed that if you try, you'll get somewhere in the right direction. It may take years, but I know that in the end I'll be what I want to be.

Life is a Beach, I am Just Playing in the Sand

I have realized in life that most people don't become what they want to be and sometimes they give up their dreams for the things they want now. I always wonder why because they seem to be having a great time, but who really knows because there will be a time when all of that goes away, a time when we gave up our passions for the quick easy and way out of life. I have learned there is no easy way out. If you want something, you have to go and do it because thinking and wishing won't get you anywhere. I often wonder why people quit or settle now because it is not worth it. I have settled many times in life, I have not gone for the dream. I have finished college and other things, but I am still not where I want to be. I see people that I know go for jobs that in the end are just a rut and will really never help you get you to where you want to be. A lot of people tell me I am dumb and that I am going to have to give up my dreams because either I suck or the economy is bad. There are times when it gets to me, but then I think of the people that have worked hard and got to where they wanted to and no thing or economic crisis got in their way. That is why it is funny to me because there really is nothing stopping us in this life. Crap will happen, but it the end it comes down to you and you have to decide if it is worth it or not. Most of the time people don't believe in them and I have learned from college that anything is possible. I never believed that I would finish, I was scared the first day and every year was something scary, but in the end I finished and I realized that I can and most of the time it was me who was preventing me from reaching my full potential. I am finished, but I still have to move and people say things and do things to you that make you mad. I have learned we just have to let it go and that most of the times when people say things it is the truth and you can use that for motivation. I have learned you can do anything in life. Nothing is too hard and the main thing is you have to be confident in you and after you get that, you can reach your potential.

I have been away from blog land and had an event that made me want to rant. I realized I can't because it won't do me any good. Sometimes we get dissed and the truth gets shoved in our face and we have to eat it. When that happens you want to get revenge and make them pay for what they did. It has happened to me many times in my life and I have to realize that it is okay if people judge me for the way I am. I'll be honest that I am not the most positive person and when people tell me things I already know about myself it makes me mad. I know who I am, but I realized it's okay if people say crap because you can use that for motivation. The great thing is you can always change and sometimes it's the people themselves who have problems. I realized we say mean things because we want to hurt people and make them feel bad. I have learned we can't be like that even if life sucks because one day it will get better. Maybe it will, but I don't know because my life is the same, but that can't stop me from helping people and telling people what I see in them. I see lots of things in people that I never tell because I don't want to be that person. I don't like sharing my true feeling with people because I keep everything inside and I have realized when you do that it gets you nowhere in life. You just sit there and fester it all in and that is not good. When we get angry or want to fight back, the best thing do is walk away or ignore them. Sometimes the truth hurts and words sting, but we are not what they say we are because people truly don't know us. Sometimes people see us in our bad moments and sometimes we act certain ways to get people attention. Nobody is truly bad, what makes them bad is events in their lives and they choose to respond and I have learned that most people have a heart, no matter how bad of a person they think they are. I have learned to never give up on a person either because they have potential and we may not see, but God does and sometimes we have to be that person to show them who they really are. I realized this myself and sometimes don't believe in me and nobody is there for me and sometimes I want to be a jerk and I realize that it's okay if people don't care about me because I have the power to help them and change their lives.