Running in the snow is like setbacks, they may try to slow you down, but if you keep moving forward you get to your destination. The other day a person crashed in my car and the cop said it's nobody's fault. It's the snow. I was like what the H. It's sad because my car already has damage and girls don't like if you drive a beat up car. They say they don't care, but when you reach a certain age, they expect you to be the Michael Phelps of life. I wonder why girls say they don't care what a guy does, but deep down inside it's a lie. Girls don't give me a chance because of what I have not done. They ask me what I do for my career and I tell them and they don't say anything back. They don't know me. They don't know all the hard work I do for myself and my church, but to them that does not matter. People tell me I'm good looking, then why won't any girl just go on one date with me. It bothers me when nothing happens. I always thought when you date someone you go out and if you're interested, you keep dating. My generation does not do that. They look for perfection, but in the end I can tell you they're not going to find it. It's even more sad when you get stood up by a girl you met on an app where you swipe. That app is shallow because we only want to be with people because of their looks. In the end you have to be attracted to someone to be with someone. I could never date a person that I was not attracted to. It's a waste of time because you can try all you want, but if there is no spark then it's time to say next.
As my car got hit that night I thought of how we always try to feel sorry for ourselves. I could let my car accident define me or I could let my anxiety define me as a person. For years I have. I avoid all things and I don't see the point of doing new things. I do things, but I don't move forward. It's hard to when everything scares you. I fail. Hard I fail. I did try the last few weeks. Met some girls and maybe one day I'll date them. Maybe the ones that meet me will give me a chance. I would never tell a girl to get lost if she was not perfect or did not meet my list of standards. If I'm attracted and interested then I'll give you a chance. None of that stuff matters. It matters, but we marry potential not perfection. Perfection is what everyone wants, but in the end I have realized it never happens. Life happens and so does father time. So in the end I guess you have to decide what matters most. What determines if a person is worthy of your time is not money. They could lose their job, get sick, or find someone else. What matters is how that person treats other people and you. I don't know because I'm no dating expert. I don't enjoy dating because you can't be yourself. When you can be yourself with a person that is when you know that person might be right for you. I don't know because I'm no expert. All I know is that running is the greatest thing ever and no matter what it's the most important thing to me. Running makes me realize that everything will be alright in the end. I see the mountains, sky, and hear the birds and realize that life is not as bad as we think it is. In the end, everything will be alright.
