Saw an Adam Sandler movie the other day and realized I am like some of the characters they portray in the movie. Like the character who does that exact same thing forever and never moves forward. I am that person. The worst feeling is never moving forward. It's probably what hell is like because you're stuck in a rut. The main reason is anxiety and then there are other things that often come your way. Like injuries and surgeries.
I got injured a few weeks ago and it was not an injury where you could walk it off. It was horrible. Not as horrible as never moving forward. I said I would move forward, but I have not. I have done the exact same thing for years and years. I thought my time would come, but the only thing that came was anxiety and depression. Maybe it's depression. I do have anxiety, but some days seem depressing. Maybe because it's winter and winter sucks. I don't care if you ski or snowboard because I run in the winter and it SUCKS. I guess I should be glad I can run, but in the end you get old. Most people do. Then you see people that you know that are old and they are miserable. They get offended over every meaningless thing. I guess that is what people do when they are retired and wasted their whole life worrying about everything.
I can't say who I am talking about, but in the end that will probably be like me. I wasted my whole life worrying and not living. Who gives a dang what your neighbors do, but that is what some people do when they have nothing better to do. If they are doing something bad, then you should call the police, but if they are just doing their own thing, then stop watching them every second of your life.
Kind of like when I am at work. Why the heck should I care what people do when I should be working on moving forward in my life. In the end I do not. I wasted my life all because of anxiety. Let me say it is horrible. Everything is worse in your mind than it really is. It prevents you from moving forward like working and living in new places.
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