I wonder why people get mad when things don't go their way. I always wondered that because sometimes in life, things don't work out. Sometimes you don't get the dream you always wanted or the girl you always wanted. Or it's the other way around, when a girl likes you, but you don't see yourself liking her. Those things hurt and it hurts when people are mad at you just because you don't like them like that. Sometimes it was not meant to be. I don't have experience in this because I truly have never liked someone. I liked girls, but never has there ever been a girl that has made me want to put childish things away and become a man. ha ha

I just don't comprehend that thought. I don't see myself ever liking a girl forever or until death. I don't see how it's possible. It may sound negative, but it's true. The people I know dream of that. Where they can be with that special someone for the rest of their life. I had the dream once, but it went out years ago. I don't see how someone could love you forever. It has never made sense to me. So has the thought that once we get married, we will be happily ever after. I don't get that either because there is no such thing as that in this life because one day you are going to have to die. That may sound sad, but it's true and why should I worry about my life, if there are so many people on this earth that need more help than I do. Does it really matter if I get what I want? I don't know, but I realized true happiness is not found in marriage. It is, but in reality it's not the most important thing on why we are here. Sometimes I wonder why we are here at this time because the world seems like it's falling from greatness to mediocrity. I guess things happen for a reason, but I can't worry about what the world does or how worse it can become. I have to worry about what I can do. What I can do is look for the good and make people realize their true potential. As I write this my body feels bad, maybe it's because I am bad or never good enough. Who really knows why I feel the way I do, but one thing I know is anybody can make a difference. Anybody can inspire somebody or something. It just all has to start with you.