As I walked away from the basketball court tonight, I could taste the bitterness of the blood that was oozing in my mouth. I realized that is like life. Sometimes it does not pan out and that people are never there for you when you are down. Some may be, but I don't think there is anyone out there that has ever gave a shiz what has happened to me. It hurts when people forget about you and you just become that person that people wondered whatever happened to, but they can't even give you a call. I have realized to never put my hope in people because they will let you down and if you try, they will forget because they have important things to do and that is worry about themselves. I have often observed many people in relationships and wondered if I ever will be in one day, but I have realized it won't mainly because I am cynical person and girls don't like people like that. I had hope, but it went out the window years ago when I realized in life that I am going to have to settle and do things I hate. I have worked hard, but sometimes hard work does not get you anywhere and you either have to not let it bother you or you can let it bother you. That is what I have done and it makes me wonder why I can't seem to get back. Maybe it's because I am so used to the same thing and I don't believe in moving forward. Moving forward just means you are getting closer to the end and I do not want to become a has been. I want to be normal, but in this life you don't get to choose and sometimes it is the hardest thing to accept because you don't want to. Some people say life is simple, yet we make it so hard. Some say it is worth it though and others say you get one life to live and that you should live it and do whatever the hell you want to do. It may be true, but I have learned that the purpose of life is not to do what you want to do, it's to do things for others. Yet most of us don't, we fail short of the bar. We tend to reflect on our own problems, yet there are people out there who have it worse than us. Just because you have problems, does not mean you can do a thing. Some person once told me you have to help yourself out before you help others. It's not true because nobody is perfect and you can help people out, even if you think you are not good enough. That is what goes in my mind when I observe others.