I write the exact same things in this blog and the reason why is because in my mind I have gone nowhere. I have worked hard, but the only thing I have got was a rut that can't seem to go away, but that's okay because life is never supposed to be easy and if is is, then you are really not trying. I have learned that if you never believe you can, then you probably never will. The only person stopping yourself is you. We can have and be whatever we want and the best way to do that is to decide and say to yourself that you are going to be what you want. I also learned to never settle for anything because most of the time you are better than you think you are. It takes people to show you that and we also need to be there for people and show them what we think. You will be surprised how a small thing can make a person happy. It can even make them change. Yet I write all this and still think I am not great because in my mind I want to be the best and I have this imagination that I think when I get to where I want to be, that I'll be fine. I have realized you will never get to where you want to be and that when you do get there, it still does not mean you will be happy. Happiness does not come from possessions, it comes from helping people and keeping relationships. No riches could ever make a person happy and it can for a while, but then the happiness goes away. I have learned that to be happy it has to start with you. You can't be mad at what you have done in the past and sometimes you have to forgive yourself, even though that is the hardest thing to do. We all mess up and if we realize that it's okay, then we can move forward. I don't truly know what real happiness feels like. I know I have felt my best when I have actually helped someone for the right reasons and telling people what I truly think of them. I have often observed that is what people worry about and they need to know what we see in them because it helps them improve in their lives. We need to be there for others even though we may not really like them. The other day I saw this person cry because they thought they were lost and it actually got to me because for a moment they thought they were alone. Yet people like us stood there and did nothing to comfort them and I realized that we should have. I also realized that we are never truly alone because there is someone that is there when think we are alone and that is God. He may not give you want you want, but I have learned that God can comfort you in your times of need. He can put people in your paths that can help you improve. If you think not, you just have to look a little harder and then you will realize that God was there the whole time. We are never alone and if we think we are, we just need to go find others and help them be comforted. I don't know why I am writing this and showing to the world how I really think, but I have realized if you never speak from your heart, then nobody will know who you really are. The jokes aside I have realized that we all are good and have potential and sometimes it may take a little longer to get to where we want to be, but if we never quit, we will get there.