Past

I sometimes run into people who used to know me and they always second guess me in my opinion. People say they actually care, but then why do they ask me questions that make me feel stupid. This one person who once knew me asked me what I have been up to and I told them I have been going to school and they asked me if I was just doing generals and taking classes. I'm sorry, but that just gets on my nerves because I am almost done with my bachelors degree, I have one more internship and then I am graduated. Then there are people who assume I go to Salt Lake Community College and I think they are so dumb that they would assume I go there when I have told them in the past that I go to the University of Utah. I think people think I am a certain way because I did not do things in the LDS church and yet that is my reason to prove those people wrong. It's like they assume I am lazy, but I work harder than most people because I have to prove them wrong. That is why I hate meeting people from the past, they just get on my nerves because they assume something I am not. That is my life, people, work, and girls always doubt me. So I have to prove them wrong and I don't feel bad for being like that, but when people assume things it just gets on my nerves.

I do like it because it gives me motivation to show them up, even though they probably don't even know that they offended me. I just feel like nobody believes in me and I have something to prove. I understand that is part of life to prove yourself in work life and personal life. It just makes me laugh when people say dumb things and assume that I am a certain way. Or maybe it's just me because I think people are judging me because of certain things I did not do. That is probably true because I don't like when people judge me. How do I know what they really think? I just assume that is what they think, but I don't truly know and that has been my whole life story and it is sad because I can't overcome it. I think that everyone is against me and that they want me to fail, but who knows what they are really thinking, only God knows. I guess that is something I have to overcome and forget and not worry because that is not what life is about. I can only worry about me and where I am going to be and hopefully that will be somewhere better than I was before.