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People say it always works out, but sometimes that is not true. It is a bunch of $#!), and I don't feel sorry for saying that because experiences in my life have made me think that way. We don't get what we want, we often have to taste failure and it's not a good feeling. I have tasted it too often and it is sad that things do not work out. They say if you do all the right things everything falls into place, but I am a skeptic and don't believe that all the time because I do what is right yet nothing falls into place. It is sad because you wanted to get what you wanted, yet you got failure and bitter thoughts why you. I often wonder why things don't seem to work out for me. It is sad because I don't want to keep doing the same thing over and over again. I wanted to move, yet it seems that I will be stuck in a rut for a little longer and that is sad. It is sad because you wanted more and you thought you were good at what you do, but nobody believed in you. You may wonder what I am even talking about, but it is not that hard to figure out. I am talking about my last thing I have to do in school and that is a big internship and nothing has worked out. It looks bleak and I don't know if it will work out. I had a dream to graduate in the summer, yet the companies I wanted to work for don't want me. I guess that is my life story when I think about it. I never got my first choice of where I wanted to work, I always had to go to places that were not my dream. So these experiences have made me cynical because doing the right thing does not mean you will get the promotion or the dream job. I am not trying to be negative, but that is how I feel. It seems like no one has ever wanted me and so that has made me who I am today. I want to prove all those people wrong who did not hire me or believe in me. I know I can be anything I want to be, yet these people only see one thing and they don't look at the potential somebody has. I have a lot of potential, people don't want to roll the dice on me. My goal is to be a graphic designer, yet people don't believe in me. They should realize that everything I have done in graphic design is by myself. I have no teacher, I just have me and it is sad that no realizes how hard I work because I learned from working hard and being creative. It is sad that I can't seem to find my dream internship, I want to do graphic design or web design, but nobody believes in me or they are too lazy to even respond back to me. It is sad because they say if you live right and do what is right, things will go your way, but for me they have not and I don't see anything improving. All I wanted was to achieve my dreams and graduate in the summer, but right now it looks like another setback and I have to stop and stare and wonder what went wrong. I will never give up my dreams because I know I am good at whatever I want to be and that is the same with everybody. You can be what you want to be, it might not work out at first, but you have to keep trying and sometimes people don't believe in you, but that is life. You can't worry what other people think, you have to believe in you and if you do, you can get to where you want to be.