Thank You

I just want to thank all those people who dis my shot in basketball and how I run . I am saying thank you because you give me motivation to show you up and prove you wrong. I know that may sound bad, but my whole life I never felt good enough so I have a chip on my shoulder and I do have something to prove. I want to show these people up and embarrass them because it makes me mad. My whole life no one has ever believed in me, so that is why I think they way I think.

Thank you to all the companies I was not good enough to get hired for. One day I'll become something and show them up . I've gotten rejected and it hurts and it makes me want to work harder. I believe that I am just as good as anyone else. . These events have made me who I am today. So every company that does not believe in me, I'll remember and use it for motivation. I know people think that is negative, but my whole life I felt like I have been ignored. I also want to thank the companies that I've worked for that never believe in me too. It just adds more fuel to the fire to show them up. Who I am showing up? No one, but in my mind I still feel like I have something to prove.

Thank you to all those girls who ignored me and pretended to be my friend. First to all the girls that I had crushes on, thank you. Thank you because I see some of these girls I actually liked go for other guys. All I have to say they are losers and it's your loss. It hurts, but getting ignored makes me want to work harder and harder so I can be something. Being ignored does give me motivation and it makes me want to show them up and say that I will be something and I hope they just settle. I am no loser, but when you done nothing your whole life these are the thoughts that destroy you. So I want to become better than those guys that these girls I liked go for. Why? because my whole life I have just been the tag along and never got to experience anything like being in a real relationship. I never went to any dances and I never had any girls that I knew liked me. So I find it hard to believe when people tell me that I am a handsome young man and that girls would like to get to know me better. I may be good looking, but when you have done nothing socially for the past 5 years, it is hard to overcome the thoughts of being never good enough.

I would also like to thank those people in my church who never believed in me. This also adds fuel to the fire. I love those people who treat me different because I did not go on a mission. It did hurt, but it gives me motivation now. I want to show to all those people that not going does not mean a thing. It does not mean you are saved. These feelings do make me feel never good enough as well and so I have something to prove.

So now you know what I really think. My whole life I was never the kid everyone wanted. I was just the person that people never believed in. These things did ruin me, but now they give me motivation because I am good and no one is better than anyone else. I'm not better than anyone. I just got to do what is best for me and move forward. Sometimes these things create setbacks and they can be deadly. That is why I run, workout, and work hard because I want to prove those people wrong who said things about me. It hurts and when you don't have anyone to fall onto when you are down, it creates anger. I am angry and hurt and I don't know if I'll ever become that person who can forget. I dwell on the past and that is not good because dwelling on the past destroys me.