sick

I hate life, it's not fun. I can't make decisions because I am messed up. You may look at me and think I am normal, but I am far from normal. Normal people don't worry about classes or majors or jobs. They go try new things and are not afraid to fail. I'm afraid and that is why I have failed in my life. I always think of the worst and never think of the positive and that is not a way to live one's life. I am the point where I just want to quit school and never go back because I don't believe I'll ever make it. I am so close to graduating, yet stupid little fears get in my head. I hate it, it has kept me from moving forward and that is the most important thing in this life. To all of those people who think they do nothing, trust me you do something by trying new things. I just do the exact same thing over and over again and it's been like that for the past four years. That is what happens when you get nervous and you think you have nothing that you can offer to this society. I know that it will all work out in the end.I hope and I know that if I never quit I'll make it. What is making it? I don't know, but to me it's having a job that pays well and a family. To have a someone that loves me is the greatest feeling in the world and that is why I would want to have a wife and a family one day. Trust me, being alone and doing whatever you want is not that great, it's fun at first, but it's not even worth it. All those people that say being single is the greatest thing, it's not true. To me it's not, I think life would be more enjoyable if you had someone to share the bad times and even the good times. I also think that being with someone gives you passion, because you will do anything to succeed in the relationship. It also gives you motivation not to fail.