People are reading my blog and I don't like it because now I feel like I have to watch what I write. This one kid I know thinks I hate people in my own church. I don't hate my own members, I just get sick of it sometimes. I get sick of the cliques. I am not a part of any, because I am more anti-social, I prefer to do things alone. Unless there is someone I really like then I'll try to be more soical, but recently I have not found any girls that I want to get to know better. There are a few, but I don't know if they are into me. I am not going to be creepy about it and stalk them. I just need to ask them out if I really like them.
Anyways, I started blogging for my class and I liked writing for my blog because no one knew why I did it or even why I wrote it. I felt it as more of an outlet to relieve stress. It feels great when I write how I really feel and I am sorry that I might offend people. This is who I am, I am not a bad person, but I do have chips on my shoulders that I carry and that is why I am so hardcore when it comes to competition and other things in this life. I justwant to show people that I am good and I don't think that's a bad thing to do.
It is my fault for letting people see my blog. I have the link on facebook. I just wanted to see if people would actually check it out and I guess some have. It's kind of creepy, but oh well I can't worry what everyone thinks about me. If I do that, then I'll destroy myself. I have been frustrated over the past few weeks, but it's my fault anyways. If I really wanted to change something then I would do it myself. No one can change anybody, you have to be the one that wants to change. I have learned that in my own life. I have changed for the better and wonder if it's worth it. So far, I would say no, but I know it will get better in the end.
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